just a SAHM? Kiss my SAHM a$$!

So, I decided to take my lil people to the park today...there was this lady there, I could tell she was NOT a SAHM (Stay At Home Mom for all you non-abbreviators) since no mom wears VS jeans, high heeled boots (like 6 inch heels) in the wet mulch while trying to climb around after a 3 year old. We started talking and she told me it was her day off...I said cool, she said "so what do you do?" and I said (my mistake) I don't work. She replied, "Oh, so you're JUST A STAY AT HOME MOM then?" as if I had a disease that she was afraid she'd catch! THE NERVE of that woman! I wanted to reach out and touch somebody (in a violent way), but instead I said "Yes, I'm a stay at home mom...and when my daughter is President and she thanks me for being there, I'll be reassued that it was worth it." I wanted to add something along the lines of "and when your daughter is a prostitute looking for the love she didn't get as a child, you'll know where you stand." but alas...I didn't say it. Thankfully I suppose...I don't want any of my working mom (outside of the house working) friends to think that I think ill of them, just so we are clear! I have NOTHING but respect for all moms, real moms who do what they have to, so that their kids have good lives. Work if you have to, stay home if you have to, but do what you have to do to ensure that your kids get to enjoy life! There are to many kids in the world today who don't have people who love them...who don't have anyone who cares...its sad and mom's everywhere...SAHM or working moms...should be proud of the job they have...we have been chosen, we have a higher calling! We are responsible for, not only our own lives, but for the small & helpless lives of our children. If you are a real mom...and you do whatever it takes for your kids...and you know that their love is the only thanks you'll ever need...give yourself a pat on the back (or in my case, a trip to Starbucks!) and know that you have the most important job in the world!

the omenator

I wish there was a scary font that I could write in! I just watched "The Omen 666"...I know, where was I 4 years ago when it came out!? I was busy with a 6 month old and a 2 year old, living in upstate NY...but I digress.

Watching movies like that always make me want to do LOTS of research...unfortunately, they also put my faith...or maybe its lack of faith...they put me to the test. See...I don't really know how I feel about God...I know how I feel about other people believing in God...I'm all for it! I don't think that any one person has the right to tell another person that they believe the wrong thing...none of us really "know" the truth...we think we do, but we don't. I love when people quote the Bible as if it really were holy scripture...I heard a quote once, it said "The Bible wasn't faxed down from Heaven." If you can't figure out what that means, it means that God didn't write the Bible, man did...or several men did in fact...God didn't drop it off on anyone's doorstep, or take it to a publisher, men wrote it. The authors are even named! Maybe you've heard of them, there's John, Luke, Matthew, Mark...there are others but you get the picture. The point is, none of them are actually Jesus...they tell you what Jesus said, but the Bible wasn't actually written in English to begin with. It was written in Hebrew (the Old Testament) because it was a Jewish book, and the New Testament was written in Greek...I don't know about you, but I can't read Hebrew or Greek, so even if I saw an original copy of the Bible, I couldn't tell you what it says! I do know that the Bible has been changed over the years...even if it wasn't done maliciously (which, when you consider mankind it probably was malicious) there are somethings that just don't translate well, and words got changed and the meanings of stories changed...it's just a fact that there are words in other languages that we don't have a meaning for so we just use the closest thing we can think of, but it doesn't always work.

More tomorrow...tired now.

healthy as a horse...a sick, lame horse, but a horse...

So...I had a doctors appointment at 9 today...got to the clinic early, but what else is new. Had my appointment, and the PA ordered about 700 tests...went to the lab and got my blood drawn. Headed to X-ray, but I couldn't get my x-rays till the results from my pregnancy test came back...so I go to the referral office and get my referral set up to see a GI specialist, go to the pharmacy to pick up my migraine medication and go to find out the pregnancy test results. NEGATIVE, whew...thank God for small favors!!! Go back, and have to strip down and don a thin cotton gown for my x-rays. 3 x-rays and a very talkative Staff Sergeant later, I'm done and packing up the two youngest kids so we can finally leave. So, 2 hours, 3 blood vials, 1 cup of pee, 1 referral, 3 x-rays, and a bottle of pills later I finally leave the clinic with absolutely NO more information than I had going in to the appointment. Love it. I have no idea what is wrong with me, but the PA feels that the migraines and GI problems are inter-related. I wonder what will happen next...OMG, I just had a break through...more later!

my "not so new year" new years resolutions

1. Attempt to learn to draw
2. Learn more about photography (watch out Jen Harland, I'll be picking your brain!!)
3. Stop letting people take advantage of me
4. Speak up when someone offends MY personal beliefs (which I would bet most people don't even know!)
5. Make a concerted effort to do more physically...I got out of the Air Force and I'm out of shape...or at least, I'm not the shape I want to be.

These are all just kind of working their way into my life right now, things that I've wanted to do for a while, but I'm deciding that NOW is when I'm going to start. I'm also considering picking up Close To My Heart as a hobby-job. I say hobby-job because I don't have a ton of time to throw into making it a full time job, but I definitely want to feed my obsessive-compulsive hording problem...its my problem and if it needs to be fed, I'LL FEED IT!!!

here in my car...scratch that...i drive a van

How much trouble can one van really cause for me? Let me count the ways -

1. Last month I had to get 4 new brakes and 2 new tires...$900+.
2. Yesterday, the guy whose truck I backed in to(the one who told me, its ok don't worry about it...btw this happened 4 monthes ago!!) left a $968 estimate for the repair in my mailbox, not mailed it to me, not came over and gave it to me, just dropped it off in the box...(did I mention that the accident was 4months ago!!!
3. Today, I go outside to take Connor to school and I have a flat tire...Bill comes home to change the flat tire and the lug nut stem SNAPS! REALLY?? So I have to drive about 30 minutes to the dealership to get it fixed, so that I can pay $37 for them to replace the stem (and another that needed replacing) and tell me that they couldn't find the hole...great, maybe I can't find my credit card.

I need a vacation.

Fashion Emergencies

I will NEVER understand some of the clothes that people find fashionable...I know I probably sound old when I say that, but seriously! Take a look at these awesome choices here!
The first, as you see, is an awesome high heeled gladiator sandal, which is both butt-ugly and incredibly unhelpful when fighting lions in the Roman Coliseum. Really? What gladiator (yes, that is really the style) was ever going to wear those shoes? Maybe the gladiator's hooker girlfriend, but never the actual gladiator.
The second is a sweet variation of an infants sailor outfit! In fact, I'm fairly certain that my infant son owns an outfit just like it, but with a polo shirt style top and I'm also fairly certain that it was bought (maybe made) by his great great grandmother. All you need is a dixie cup on top of your head and you've got the full ensemble! Maybe it was made so that the mother and child could wear matching (ridiculous) outfits.