Song of the Day - Posession

This song has been playing in my head all day.  In case you aren't familiar with the song, here's the back story...Sarah wrote the song after having being stalked by Uwe Vandrei, an obssessed fan from Ottawa for three years. She eventually took out a restraining order against him and wrote Possession shortly thereafter, using his letters as the basis of much of the lyrics. Incredibly Vandrei filed a lawsuit against her claiming "breach of confidence" and laid claim to a share of the songwriting credits. The case never made trial as Vandrei committed suicide in December 1994.  Sarah said that she wrote the song as a way of trying to understand the feeling of intimacy that someone could have for another person that they have never met, and that writing the song was very therapeutic.  When I first heard it, I thought it was a love song, but when I heard the story, it became so much more...a story of not just love, but completely unrequited love and what Vandrei probably viewed as the ultimate betrayal.  If you've never heard the song, listen to it...its beautiful.


Posession - Sarah McLachlan

Listen as the wind blows from across the great divide
voices trapped in yearning, memories trapped in time
the night is my companion, and solitude my guide
would I spend forever here and not be satisfied?
and I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
Through this world I've stumbled
so many times betrayed
trying to find an honest word to find
the truth enslaved
oh you speak to me in riddles
and you speak to me in rhymes
my body aches to breathe your breath
your words keep me alive
And I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes dear
Into this night I wander
it's morning that I dread
another day of knowing of
the path I fear to tread
oh into the sea of waking dreams
I follow without pride
nothing stands between us here
and I won't be denied
and I would be the one
to hold you down
kiss you so hard
I'll take your breath away
and after, I'd wipe away the tears
just close your eyes...

grow up...maybe not

I've realized recently that I'm a grown up...I know what you're thinking...I'm 27, obviously I'm a grown up, but thats not why I'm grown up.

The other day, I took my 2 youngest to the park that I wanted to have Connor & Lukey's birthday party's at...I changed my mind as soon as I stepped out of the car, when I could smell pot coming from every direction..."shannon, how could someone as sweet and innocent as you, know what pot smells like???"  Lets not pretend here, we all know the truth..I know what it smells like, and I know that there was a LOT of it.  The reason I say I'm old is, I chose not to have my son's party's there because of it.  I didn't want my kids around it...and I didn't want their friends there around it either...

On the other hand, there are some things that I don't think I will ever grow out of...dancing with no music, singing out loud just because I can, singing loudly in the car, dancing around the living room every time I hear the songs I love, being who I am inside...the part of me that few people get to see...that part that I wish I could show more often.

I also realized today, that I would NEVER change anything that has happened in my life....NOTHING!  Not that it was all good, or bad, or great, or terrible...but it made me who I am now.  I love where I grew up, I know a lot of people who don't like it there, but I can't imagine going to a different school, or having different life experiences, or exposures to things.  I seriously love everything about it right now...must be the meds.